Maniacal Days

Friday, June 15, 2007

I gained 8 lbs and I don't care!!

How was that? Convincing?

So yea...... I went to the doctor this week and as I suspected I gained more that I was supposed to. It's always a shock when I get there because I have vowed, in order to keep my sanity, to NEVER actually get on the scale at home while pregnant. So when I go the doctor's it's always the first time I've even seen a scale since the last time I was there. In fact even when I see the number (which HELLS NO I'm not telling you!) I never even remember if it's good or bad. It's like I totally block that out of my head. I finally find out the good/bad (usually bad) news when the doctor walks into the examining room.

*opens door with smile* (no hi, hello, nothing)

"Sooo you gained 8 lbs this week (This is always how he starts) It's a little more than we'd like to see, but that's ok. You were pretty flat in the beginning so your just making up. I always like to look at weight gain as a whole. So far you've gained 20 lbs, and we will be scheduling the C-Section about a week early, so you'll save some at the end. You still have the potential to keep under the 35lbs mark." (HAHA not likely!)

I left there with ambition to try and be better this coming month. I was going to try and skip some of the cravings and maybe try to make dessert be something that comes after only dinner, instead of ya know after everything that I put in my mouth. Attempt to eat more oatmeal for breakfast and less Sausage, Egg and Cheese on a bagel with ketchup. (which lately is an everyday occurrence.) Less snaking between meals, and more walking!

This bit of ambition lasted until I got home and heated up my heating pad for my back, flopped on the couch, and chowed down a nice big bowl of Breyers Black Raspberry Chocolate ice cream. Oh well.

Hey! At least I skipped the chocolate syrup and whipped cream! I freakin deserve a metal!

Labels: Preggo Blues

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Monday, June 11, 2007

Food! Heartburn! Alien! Gasp!

I know that the stages of pregnancy are typically called trimesters and they have names like 1st 2nd and 3rd, but I'm not sure that is descriptive enough to give a real understanding as to what's going on.

My thoughts? There are 6, and should be called:

Huh? Yuk! Zzzz: Where your brain is mush, everything food related sounds nasty, and you can't stay awake.
Ahh! Shopping! Frisky!: Where your finally able to eat, you embrace being pregnant and go out shopping for cute maternity clothes. Your also finding your husband extremely attractive like every night.
Food! Heartburn! Alien! Gasp!: You LOVE food and want to eat it all the time, but you need to have 3 tums for dessert. You start to realize there is an ALIEN kicking the crap out of you from the inside, and this alien is inhibiting you from breathing regularly.
Whale! *sigh* Nothing to wear: Your huge, you still have the same sex drive but don't want to move plus your not feeling all that sexy, and you hate the way everything looks on you.
OMG I have a million things to do, SLOW DOWN: Where you come to the realization that you only have a few months left and you have NOTHING DONE!
I don't care, just GET OUT!: When your DONE being pregnant and you decide that whatever you don't have you can just buy later, or hire someone to do.

Currently, I'm in the Food! Heartburn! Alien! Gasp! stage. Which is also the stage where you dread getting on that scale at the doctor's office because you KNOW it's gonna be more than your allotted 1 lb a week. I'm going to the doctor's today, and I think that I'm going to grab a whole bowl of pineapple and eat that before I go. [Pineapple is a natural diuretic and prevents water retention.] Maybe I could drop a pound or two of water before I go. *cringe* maybe?

Labels: Preggo Blues

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Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Better Late Than Never

So, it was supposed to be Friday but believe me it was worth the wait!

Jenn and John have a new post up on

go check it out, it's a debate sparker!

Labels: Dad said Mom said

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Monday, June 04, 2007

Unattractive

At 23 weeks pregnant I am officially at the point where this body is no longer mine. Oh it happened quite a few weeks ago actually, but it's finally hitting me. I look in the mirror after I get out of the shower and not one part of my body is recognizable. From my feet all the way up to my face, I belong completely to this baby inside of me.

Funny enough, Mother Nature decides that this is the time that your sex drive goes through the roof. Although having drive and feeling attractive enough to use it is two totally different things. I look in the mirror and think of my husband. If I was him, I wouldn't find me attractive! Of course, he has never and would never elude to that. In fact, I'm sure that he will comment on this that I am out of my mind. The problem is not him, it's me. I am aware that I am pregnant and not fat, but that doesn't change the way that I feel about my body.

Being a person who is 5' 1" and has 8+lb babies does not make it any easier. To look at me right now, not even 6 months pregnant, I look like I could potentially give birth in a week or so. At Allie's daycare family picnic this weekend someone asked me when I'm due. When they heard my reply of September (I wouldn't dare say the END of September) they just responded with: "Ohhhhh!!!! Wow!" Of course I want to scream out - But but I'm small and I have big babies!!!! Instead, I just smile.

The reality is of course that this is my body and it does look familiar. It looks mostly like it did in 2005. It's focusing on exactly what I asked it to focus on, which is to grow a baby. So instead of making faces at it in the mirror, I should be grateful that is does what I ask it to do without too much of a fight.

Plus, it takes takes a lot of work to make a child this damn cute!

Labels: A Day in the Life, Picture Perfect, Preggo Blues

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